That was a couple years ago, I hated myself. I was just couldn’t accept myself. That kept me away from how I looked, I had felt like I was a different person from me who lived in this world. That shit was fucking cringe but thats what I’ve felt in long time. It was normal. It was as usual to me.
But these day I love myself. I don’t know what exactly the reason is. I guess it’s because I accept my girls-like personality.
Now I feel the more I make a effort to be a woman who wanna be more beautiful, the more confident as I am.
However today, I found a girl who was asking my friends like “can I get your number pls?” even though she never tried asking me like that. And that shit reminded me bad memories buried in my heart. That was what I’ve been experienced for a long long time ever. And I found myself like “I am on the other side” and it was like “am I still the on-the-other-side person?”. If it was true, nothing gonna make it even though I was fucking ready to do my things in this summer.
So one question still fills in my head like “which am I this-side-person or the-other-side person?”
